Adam is back. o yea, so wat about it?...
Honestly, there really is no answer for that, as wat it means cannot be more subjective.
And who really does care btw.
these past 2 or 3 months have been quite heavy, not simply becuz thr's so much to do, or to rush for, or to frail upon, or to worry about. it simply is that it seems to me that so much hav happened, too many twists. even more than the prestige. sometimes there even had no time for me 2 react.
its like the year has been procrastinating and saving all that could have or could not have happened and cram it within this period n observe how dynamic we can be.
of cuz, life goes on, eventually, after all the aftermath ripples rest, but it doesnt mean that taking it all from life and to learn will be as easy as it sounds.
but then dun get me wrong, nothing really sad happened, really.
eventho i learned with my life, i feel with my soul the meaning and importance of independence. trust me, regardless of how much historical events that cite independence that one can remember or understand, he/she will not really understand independence unless he/she has been pathetically reliant on somebody else, be it technically, financially, soulfully or physically in which the dependence is not welcomed and is not mutual.
u would have to feel begging mercy by chipping out ur pride, dignity and personal feelings and helplessly accept wateva conditions offered regardless of how ur treated. if ur desperate.
u would have to feel ur hopes being played up and down and ur trust being checked in or scrambled, neither at ur will but others.
only when u are canned, u would appreciate the meaning and the ability and the blessings jus for u to be independent as a person. like a prisoner being freed. like the belt around ur neck unchained. then u really feel wat independence is. not studying independence how ur gov is teaching on D national day year after year. it really is a state of mind.
sometimes, there's no short cut but pain to reach that world of independence;sometimes u need to be whipped in life to break free.

on another note, things appear to be like getting a hold of the mirage in the water. wateva it means, jus a feeling i momentarily have, lol probably a state of mind

till then i sincerely hope the best for all
and that every can appreciate every moment he/she lives to the fullest
i hope u see a road out if ur lost

i hope that i could hav been clearer and more organized and focused, but
its just a way of life of mine when i'm down but not depressed; lost but not desperate; having something in mind but quite disoriented; having something to say but not quite sure wat